Monday, March 7, 2011

His Yoke is Easy

I've started writing this post three times only to start over. That is just a small indication of how I have been feeling lately. Scattered? Inadequate? Insecure? I'm not even sure what word describes it. I'm feeling in a fog. Yesterday I spent 20 minutes at church desperately searching for my car keys, on the verge of tears{which seems to be a theme lately}only to find them dangling from my pocket! Seriously! I know it sounds trivial but have you ever felt like you might be losing your mind?
I can't quite seem to focus on anything and when I do, I feel it is on the wrong things. What is it that creeps in and makes me feel this way? That I'll never be able to keep up with the housework, I'll never be able to make N understand the importance of obedience, that was a terrible decision, why do you keep obsessing about that?
I know these are all lies whispered by the enemy to keep my focus on anything other than the
One who has secured my salvation. I know these thoughts will continue to pop up and so I continue to fight them with the Word and prayer.
This morning in my quiet time I read this verse and once again God delivers.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30

 That is exactly how I'm feeling, weary and burdened. I don't need to understand exactly why I feel that way, only that He alone can give me rest.

And just more reassurance that He is with me and I have nothing to fear. He sees me, knows me and loves me anyway.

"Do not be afraid  of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both body and soul in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." Matthew 10:28-30

So today I will hold these verses in my heart and meditate on them{and try not to lose my keys}.


Laurie J said...

you are not alone! I've felt like this, again and again, really. And the only cure (besides securing your car keys to your person with hot glue or something) is to do exactly what you did--take it to God. thanks for this post! encouraging :)

Meredith said...

Go listen to "Lay Down My Life" by Mandie Pinto. Love ya! : )